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Marry me

caveat-emptor — Mon, 10 Sep 2012 22:13:40 +0100

Marry me

This is why I will always go back to Ballet as my main way to...

caveat-emptor — Mon, 10 Sep 2012 14:52:05 +0100

This is why I will always go back to Ballet as my main way to get fit.

Choices

caveat-emptor — Sun, 09 Sep 2012 23:15:41 +0100

I saw an ex for the first time in a while this weekend. One of the many guys that has been a total asshole at one point or another.
He looked awful and I’m sorry to admit that was an ego boost.

We barely spoke more than polite words. That made me realise I had to cut this persona-non-grata off my life. No angry feelings, I just don’t want pointless polite relationships in my life. And I really felt liberated once I made that choice. Why make an effort to get nothing back when so many other amazing people I love need my attention?

I did wonder what it would have been like if we had struck conversation and he had attempted to start something again. As unlikely as I knew that scenario was I wondered what I’d do or say. I now know what I’d say.

I’d say that I was never in love with him (truth) and that in fact I never really wanted a relationship at that time, even less so with him. He was hardly ever boyfriend material and he barely is these days. That I’m sorry that I used him. Not sexually, but as my emotional punchbag, to get over someone who I actually was (still am) in love with.

And I’d say that I’m a different person now, one who is actually slightly looking forward to a relationship, yet he’d never in a million years stand a chance again with me.

That’s what I would have said.

Last week I was a river of tears for a day. The only thing that...

caveat-emptor — Fri, 31 Aug 2012 10:59:55 +0100

Last week I was a river of tears for a day.

The only thing that made me laugh and feel better for an instant was a phrase my best friend said:

“You’re Tanya fucking Wade. You go in a bar, choose a guy and go “ooh, I think I’ll have that one” and you always get him.”

At that point I laughed really hard (between tears) and my ego was partially rebuilt.

It’s during those moments that you know who your real friends are.

This is just a gratuitous Ryan Gosling picture to help me illustrate my point (or just to stare at his six pack)

I miss my ballet legs…

caveat-emptor — Fri, 31 Aug 2012 10:37:56 +0100

I miss my ballet legs…

Yup. Happens to me all the time.

caveat-emptor — Fri, 31 Aug 2012 10:33:37 +0100

Yup. Happens to me all the time.

Photo

caveat-emptor — Fri, 31 Aug 2012 10:27:45 +0100

I miss ballet boys.

caveat-emptor — Fri, 31 Aug 2012 10:26:05 +0100

I miss ballet boys.

Photo

caveat-emptor — Fri, 03 Aug 2012 00:13:17 +0100

Frekking babe. Want. Now.

caveat-emptor — Thu, 02 Aug 2012 21:42:26 +0100

Frekking babe. Want. Now.

I should have learned by now

caveat-emptor — Wed, 01 Aug 2012 23:35:19 +0100

to never ever ever rely on a guy and always make my own plans. If someone wants to be with you they’ll do anything to see you. That’s always the case.

Also, why do I keep forgetting not to mess around with:

a) boys in bands

b) dancers

If I only remembered this my love life would be that much more successful.

What is it...

caveat-emptor — Wed, 01 Aug 2012 13:34:22 +0100

… with me and boys lately? Its like a reverse Lynx effect where I can’t get them off me.

I need one of these in my life. NOW.

caveat-emptor — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 17:29:43 +0100

I need one of these in my life. NOW.

I may deny this but I melt like butter when a guy takes control....

caveat-emptor — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 17:28:46 +0100

I may deny this but I melt like butter when a guy takes control. I pretend to be this domineering self confident girl but deep down I’m old fashioned like that.

He did just that last night. And I let him.

Repeat soon?

Amen to this.

caveat-emptor — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 17:24:15 +0100

Amen to this.

I don’t remember the last time I had such good rough sex....

caveat-emptor — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 15:52:18 +0100

I don’t remember the last time I had such good rough sex. Being with another dancer on the same frame of mind and level of physicality definitely helps. Good sex is about being on the same page at the end of the day.

And the build up of sleeping with someone you have wanted for a long time also makes for a more intense experience.

This. Lots. Last night.This is why I date dancers. Yes

caveat-emptor — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 13:00:46 +0100

This. Lots. Last night.

This is why I date dancers. Yes

Photo

caveat-emptor — Tue, 31 Jul 2012 10:45:02 +0100

"Added to their loveliness was a new mysterious suffering, perfectly silent, visible in the blue..."

caveat-emptor — Mon, 30 Jul 2012 15:19:28 +0100

“Added to their loveliness was a new mysterious suffering, perfectly silent, visible in the blue puffiness beneath their eyes or the way they would sometimes stop in mid-stride, look down, and shake their heads as though disagreeing with life.”

- Jeffrey Eugenides, The Virgin Suicides (via thelostdeer)

It’s not all about sex. Sometimes it’s so nice to...

caveat-emptor — Mon, 30 Jul 2012 14:57:26 +0100

It’s not all about sex. Sometimes it’s so nice to hang out with someone and spend the hours just kissing.

I definitely have not done that in a very long time.